Lesson Learned

My leg shakes as the sweat drips down my back. I feel cold and uneasy, like a child waiting to be scorned. I glance over at the space between us. It's only a few feet I shouldn't even take notice, It's all I see. Her hand finds my thigh and continues to my back. I start to feel a familiar warmth creep over me as my leg begins to calm. I want her, all of her. The room gets quiet as my eyes meet hers, I just want to breath her in and soak in her warmth. It's only the start of a new beginning nothing to write home about but enough to stop me in my tracks. My mind starts to reel as I begin comparing and contrasting her love to those before. Thankfully she grabbed my face and kissed me hurling me back to reality before I got lost in my own insecurities. Since that night I have not once let thoughts of past mistakes creep into my head and create doubt about her.

 For the first time in a long time I am perfectly content. happy.

close your eyes and walk until you feel the water under your toes.

We sit in coffee shops talking about the future as if the past isn't eating away at us. The truth is we'd give anything to be children again. To be ignorant of the pain and disapointment that fills the air. So some of us fill our lives with pretty boys and shoes to soften the blow. We obsses over our empty selfish dreams and let the promises we've broken fade away just to creep back in the middle of the night. Tell me what you've seen, does it keeps you up at night? Because at the end of the night when you lay down you will tell yourself this is enough, your life is good and you're happy. I won't play those games anymore. All you do is concern yourself with the same things that are drowning your beautiful soul. I promise if you would just relax and listen to your heart not the people around you, you'd get so far.