unwavering consistency

 As I lie down to rest my head I realize the person I've been fighting is the person that I am. There is no way around it; no scenic detour, no crafty lies, and most importantly no running. Soon the temperature will drop and I will once again be able to cover the burns without question. I thought I was done with this and the truth is I've hardly even begun. If I could say to you all the things my heart screams out in the middle of the night perhaps you'd see what a mess I really am and count your losses and walk away. Maybe not, maybe you'd stay with me and hold me till the sadness fades away. I sure hope so because for the first time I'll admit it, I can't do this on my own. I need you.